Gearing up for Goodbye

As soon as Lucy woke me up this morning I couldn't get back to sleep because my mind was turning with things I had to do. I immediately went downstairs and made a to-do list. And since 8am this morning I have completed approximately 0 things!! Ugh I don't know what is wrong with me :( I have also been on the verge of tears all day. Everything has been so hectic the last few months that I've had a million things on my mind and keeping me busy except for me. I think now that the chaos is over I am finally facing the realization and magnitude of what the next week will hold. I am not questioning my decision I am just letting it fully sink in. So many people have told me that they are inspired by what I'm doing or think it's brave and I haven't really seen that... until now. It really is amazing to think that as of next Monday I will be all alone in a new town where I know one person. I know this is going to be such a good experience for me. It will be one of growth and relearning. It's such a blessing to be given the opportunity to start over in life.
I think I'm just mourning my old life today and I am going to allow that. But tomorrow it's back to that list :)